speaking out loud

pretending you're happy for someone can be one of most
painful feeling. not that you shouldn't be, but knowing that
that someone can do better with someone else is very frustrating.
wanting to say that it should be ended so that no one else will get
may seem very selfish, but how will you know if it's for their own
good? to me the line between selfishness and doing the right thing
is very thin that it clouds one's judgement.. hoping for the better
is the only thing that can be done right now.. believing that everything
has a reason and that the piece of puzzle will always fall into the right place.

...

overwhelming happiness
unforgettable memories
priceless smiles
this little obssession has affected you greatly
in ways you never imagined yourself doing
you got so excited that in the end it's as if nothing happened
you got your hopes up too high
you got disappointed
you said you'll stop making a fool of yourself
you said you'll be okay by now
you have set your mind to get things back to how they were supposed to be
you know you want to move on
yet you're still holding on
hoping all these is just a bad dream

crapness

i'm thinking about lots of things right now.. i don't even know where to start.. my mind is like overloading with info of how i am feeling and things i am pondering about and it's starting to hurt already.. man, i have to get this out of my system or i'm gonna go boom!

*yamete! urusai! i wanna hit you so hard so that you'll shut up! sheesh.. can't you modulate your own fucking voice?? >.>

*man, i'm bored.. i have nothing else to do at home..

*OMG! i'm getting heavier! i have to loose weight! damn!

*why are there so many users in this world.. not even one bit of fucking consideration..

*nani? you don't go for green jokes? are you for real? maria clara doesn't exist anymore!

*stop preaching! you're freaking me out! can't you see i'm not so inclined to religious beliefs??

*damn, i hate the feeling of attachment.. especially now that i'm only a few weeks away from leaving..

*i miss school already.. i wanna go back.. i'm not ready to graduate yet..

*ooohh.. the goodness of fastfood.. i miss it.. gimme some burger and fries! pizza!

*i'm craving for pringles right now..

*you fucking user..

*put your words into action! make up your minds dude! i won't take initiative.. i should have said no..

*i think i chose the wrong decision..

*i wonder if it's okay if i graduate 1 term late..

*i want to learn japanese!

*i'm not fucking rich! i'm just not poor.. and i know how to save money.. is that a bad thing???? shippies..

*ok, that's it for now.. i have to go to sleep.. and it's only 9pm.. i know.. i don't have a life.. go on say it.. coz i really don't..

just updating

life is boring right now, i have no more time to do anything else.. and i'm getting heavier by the moment.. T_T.. i know.. shut up already!

today was great! aside from the fact that my legs are kinda hurting from walking too much for two days i can say i am happy! first off, i got to beat my record! i was able to go beyond my highest gpa ever since i stepped in college just by 0.08333333 and i feel good about myself again.. aside from the fact that i've put a stop to my failing streak i think i just gained back my school mode self.. or whatever you want to call it.. but there's a catch, i did beat my record for the gpa thingy but it's not recognizable because i received only 1.0 from comnela.. so there.. although i should be celebrating because that 1.0 saved me from spending a few hundred bucks still.. i am satisfied with the results i got! i think i'm done with the bumming around although i might still bum around but not as much as i used to..

add to that, my brother just gave me a hitsugaya action figure! it might be just 5 or 6 inches tall, but it was still awesome! i've always wanted to have one.. and now i do! i am also currently burning cds that my brother bought while i was out.. it's just fake but these are good cds.. kami napo muna and mayonnaise' pano nangyari yun? i also just finished watching "the last kiss" a movie recommended by matt <--- i like it.. ^_^ and i also got myself a few more dvds like step up, b.e.2 and a man about town.. i don't know if these 3 are nice.. i'll see later.. or maybe tomorrow.. but i kinda like them.. haha! after posting these i'm gonna be opening the presents i got today (coz i don't wait till christmas to open them)

there you go.. i just wanted to share a happy moment with the people who read my blog.. merry christmas and a happy new year to all!