agony

one second. stop. two. stop. maximum of 1 minute. uneasiness. pain. fear. ache. suffering. something you don't usually feel. thinking of what causes it is scary. makes me want to cry. i don't wanna think about it anymore. i don't want to feel it anymore. it hurts. and i keep it to myself. no need to tell others. but no matter how hard i try to forget it. the pain is there. never knowing when it will attack me. but it's there. anytime willing to devour me. i don't want to see darkness anymore. falling down. dizziness. what is happening to me? someone tell me..

luxuries

just when i thought i am able to save money..boom! then comes another expense! yeah, big one this time.. i bought my cousin's cards and it costs me some real money.. now i have to pay it later.. and there goes 3weeks of savings.. x_x.. hmm.. i just notice this month that i really wasn't able to save much money than i used to.. and i wonder why.. last day of the month is coming up and i better save up for that day! one more week and here it comes! ^_^

nothing really..

testing..

GRRRRR!!!

have you ever felt pissed that just by thinking about it you'll feel much more pissed?? well, that's how i feel right now.. i don't even wanna talk about it..

failing to forget

It’s amusing to know that a choice made can alter the outcome of any circumstances. I wish I could go back in time to correct all those stupid slip-ups that makes me feel so humiliated right now. Or be able to erase my memory of those times when I failed to stick to my resolve. No matter how hard I try to forget these things they keep on haunting me. And when I thought I am over it, that I’ve completely overcome the nightmare, it then comes down rushing at me, flashing in my memory as if saying that I can’t run away from it. We all got some skeletons in our closet and they always say that one way or another everyone will know about it. Well, I am going to prove this wrong. These skeletons need not be exposed to the whole universe. They should all be buried in the past and stop recurring to people who wants to stop thinking about them. I want to get over the past and move on with my pathetic life. The only problem is, I don’t know how..

POCKY!!!!

it's nothing important, really.. i am just glad to realize that pockys exist here in the philippines! hahaha! i kept telling others that i really haven't seen it. while i was at the grocery buying some snacks for sunday (my groupmates are coming over for our thesis) i saw the snack pucca, then i remembered i have to make sure there is no pocky there. as i am looking around, passing through the different brands of snacks, something pink caught my attention, when i looked back to check what it was, it was there! "POCKY?!?! *smiling* no way!! then i saw 3 other different flavors chocolate and milk! haha!" well, i just realized i does exist, i thought the others were just joking about it.. and so i bought all 3 flavors..

i told you it was nothing special..

edited: as requested.. here is the picture of the said snack..^_^

making this thing official!

ok, time for me to make this site as one of my official "blogspot".. and for a change, i will do my posts in english! yeah i know it will be hard but i'll try my best!

now for my post, i'm gonna start off by saying what i am doing.. i am having a tru calling marathon, (thanks to matt! ^_^) and i am down to the last 2or3 episodes! (i think?) i should also be doing my assignment but unfortunately i don't have a copy of the questions! i just finished the fifth exam for the term and a lot more to go! and there you go, an initiation for my new blog site!

testing

testing.. 1.. 2.. 3..