agony

one second. stop. two. stop. maximum of 1 minute. uneasiness. pain. fear. ache. suffering. something you don't usually feel. thinking of what causes it is scary. makes me want to cry. i don't wanna think about it anymore. i don't want to feel it anymore. it hurts. and i keep it to myself. no need to tell others. but no matter how hard i try to forget it. the pain is there. never knowing when it will attack me. but it's there. anytime willing to devour me. i don't want to see darkness anymore. falling down. dizziness. what is happening to me? someone tell me..